Deny

Then He (Jesus) said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him 1.deny himself, and 2.take up his cross daily, and 3.follow Me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it. For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost? Luke 9:23-25

This scripture is also found in Mathew 16 as well as Mark 8

• Death on the cross was painful and humiliating.
• To carry the cross is heavy and burdensome
• The walk with the cross was agonizing